Tell us about a time things this close to working out —but didn’t . What happened next? Would you like the chance to try again, or are you happy with how things worked out?
There was a time when I wanted to Study M.ed and prepared myself by completing B.ed. I met Professor Elliott, who was the head of the research institute , I told him my reason to see him. He was a kind man , he told me I was too young and I had no teaching experience. The people they select were at least thirty five years old and I looked no more than twenty two or twenty three.
I had never seen rejection at that time. I continued to tell him I would be able to do it.He was impressed, he agreed to let me do the tests to find out how capable I was. I must have done well, they sent me a letter of acceptance.
But I was teaching in a school and they refused to accept my resignation. I informed the school authorities I’d like to join next year. They agreed.
The following year I received a scholarship to study in London, I could not give up this opportunity. I delayed my studies in the research institute by another year, they were eager to have me and were ready to have me a year later.
I had studied about destiny that we can change our destiny whenever we want,now that I think about it I’m sure it’s not always possible. I could not change mine, my aim to study M.ed was not happening.
This time it was my marriage which meant I’d move out of my country indefinitely.
I do believe in the phrase: “Man proposes, God disposes.”
I’m not sure whether I am happy or sad because I could not fulfill my ambition. Only thing that keeps me motivated and happy is , at least I am doing great with the education I have.
Even though it is unpleasant, come to break my heart
Come to leave me once again
Our relationship is not the same as before, still sometimes
do it for the sake of worldliness
How many people can I tell the cause of our separation
Come for the sake of the world even if you are angry with me
Show some respect for my love of you
You could also come to console me sometimes
Too long have I been deprived of the passionate expression of grief
Oh my beloved , come even if it’s only to make me shed tears!
For dear Indira who requested me to translate the above ghazal 🙂
My sincere thanks to khurram Shafique for taking the time to read my translation, I appreciate it very much 🙂
Head to “Blogs I Follow”. Scroll down to the third post in the list.Take the third sentence in the post , and work it into your own.
(Indira’s blog: purpose, third sentence from the top)
‘Why not come with me, I’ll adopt you , give you education and we will take care of each other.’
She was a girl lost, looking for her parents, she did not know where she was, she was scared , hungry and tired. I looked at her and wondered who she was and how she landed at my doorstep.
I was lost in my thoughts and wondered how I could help this little lost girl,suddenly a thought came to my mind, why not I go for a walk with her immediately I asked,”would you like to go for a walk with me?”
Her face brightened up it appeared she was hoping I’d ask something like that. She volunteered to walk ahead of me. I had no problem, I agreed, along the way we encountered a lot of places I had never seen.
I could see a large pond where children her age were playing, their mothers were keeping a watchful eye.
Out of the blue I saw an elderly woman coming towards us, we stopped, the woman opened her arms wide and said: “Tu kahan chali gayee thi hum tujhe dhoond rahe the”(where did you go we were looking for you?)
She looked at me as if asking can I leave I’ve found my grandmother!
Have you ever truly felt deja vu , the sensation that you’ve already had the experience you’re currently having?
This whole idea of deja vu feels like reincarnation . I did not have this experience before, not yet, who knows if I may have this experience in the future!