The Daily Post Prompt : Darkness

In response to daily post’s one -word prompt : Darkness

I have always tried to be an optimist, darkness is one thought I ignore. My mom was a great influence on us, she instilled in us the feeling never to look at disappointment like a pessimist. Her words were, “whatever God does is for a reason.”

I remembered her words and when I was disappointed I took it as maybe there are better things to come for me. I have managed to stay positive most of the time, if I say it was always the case, it won’t be true.

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Tagore song: tumi ele Translated by Ranu

Your visit feels as if

rain  has come after

A long time.

Your visit reminded me

of all kinds of confused thoughts.

Do you remember you

asked me  a question

A long time ago?

You my dear came yourself

And answered it.

It seems  daylight came

Quietly  at the end of night.

Daylight has come

For me today.

Will you sit close to me

I have lots to tell you?

Can you spare some time

for me ?

Suddenly my darkness turned

into night

without my knowledge.

I cannot not understand

And do not know how

to tell you

In the middle of your

work you suddenly

have time off.

Your visit feels

as if rain has come

after a long time!

Jewel

I have spent years chasing the tail of my darkness.  Although my name is Jewel, I was anything but a Jewel. I laughed sometimes and thought I am not a nice person,why did my parents choose this name for me.   My parents died when I was a very young boy. I never enjoyed my childhood.  Early on I was into all kinds of trouble. I stole to satisfy my hunger. I envied the kids my age who were leading a better life than I. I never knew what love was. I grew up hating and cursing anyone who got in my way.

I was not proud of myself. I didn’t go to school. I could neither read nor write. I was tired of this dark life I was leading. I made up my mind to leave this darkness behind. I looked around to see which path was appealing. Suddenly I saw a giant oak tree. It caught my attention I followed  the path that led to the tree. I felt the cool breeze.  Nature was calling me. Humans didn’t comfort me. But nature was giving me the comfort I longed for.  I sat under the tree  and began thinking how to feel peaceful. I started to relax, this type of feeling was rare for me. I felt groggy and fell asleep.

Next thing I knew someone was calling me to wake up. Who could it be, I opened my eyes, staring at me was a lady in white. I’ve never seen angels but the word angel came on my lips. I uttered the word softly. She smiled and said, “I am Sara,I live close by, every day I come here for a walk,  then I sit under this tree and meditate.”

I asked her what she meant by meditate, she said,  ” to meditate is to practice,  training our mind to focus to reach a higher level of consciousness. You can meditate anywhere at anytime.”

I was happy to know I can really become a better person,if I learn to meditate.

I said, “I am Jewel, I am a very unfortunate man, I lost my parents when I was very young,I’ve spent a larger part of my lonely  life loafing around. The things I did to fill my stomach will terrify you. It seemed this tree will lead me to the right path. I fell asleep hoping to find something or someone  who will turn my life around when I’m awake. Maybe you can guide me to become a better person. This will be a miracle for me.”

“What kind of miracle are you looking for Jewel?”

“I want to come out of my dark and ugly life and become a good person. Do you think you can help me Sara?”

Her face brightened up when she heard my plea.

“Of course I’ll help you ,come with me. I live with my painter husband,he’s a good man, he and I will do what we can to make you happy.”

Thus started my life of happiness.  Sara and Gregoire changed my life. I learned to paint from Gregoire ,and Sara taught me how to meditate. We were happy.

I put my heart and soul to attain happiness. Whenever Sara thought I needed to relax,she’d invite me to play a game of cards. I’m embarrassed to admit I knew nothing about cards, with Gregoire and Sara’s help I learned the basics.

Now I think I am worthy of the name  Jewel. I know now when we try hard enough we can achieve happiness.

Online Exhibition Painting with Music by Bangladesh Artists posted by ranu

Tagore Song    Translation by Ranu

I will sing for you.

This is why you keep me awake.

O spoiler of sleep,

I will sing for you.

This is why you startle me by your call.

O distressed one,I will sing for you.

Darkness is enclosing,

the bird is back in its nest.

The boat is ashore,

only my heart cannot rest.

In the midst of my work,

you did not let my weeping stop.

After touching me and

filling my heart with sweetness,

you move away,

I know you watch my pain secretly.

O distressed one,

I will sing for you.

This post is specially for Akhtar Bhai, Khurram Bhai,Robert, Shaidi and all the others who continuously encourage me. Thank you.

Valkyries Novel by Paulo Coelho (5- conclusion) post by Ranu

To see his angel ,Paulo needed to do three things:1. break a pact, 2. accept forgiveness,3. make  a bet.

To meet his angel Paulo needed help from Valkyries. He promised he’ll never raise his hand against himself. He promised in the name of St. Michael,only God’s hand will be responsible for everything. He would have to come out of darkness to break the pact.

He found the door that led him to the shining sun.Next step for Paulo was to accept forgiveness.Paulo could not forgive because he had hatred in his heart and therefore he thought he was unworthy of seeing his angel.Rotha the young Valkyrie couldn’t see her angel because she had fear in her heart.Valhalla the eldest Valkyrie put them together to help each other.Paulo was able to forgive and Rotha conquered fear.Paulo was glad he met two out of three conditions.The last one to make a bet was simple.He almost failed the third,his angel’s protection prevailed during channeling,he was able to speak with the angels! he realized then he will see his angel because  he met the third condition.

I found the book interesting.There were a lot of rituals,and magic.I at times found it confusing.I didn’t understand the whole thing by reading only once.There are instances there which makes me wonder,whether I  comprehended it fully.

The author himself admitted having difficulty writing it from beginning to end.