Daily Prompt : Doubt

In response to daily post’s prompt : Doubt

My years as a teenager and later an adult not a day passed when I was not in doubt of something. Before any exam I’d hold on to the question paper and after reading all the questions, I’d fear that none of the questions asked I’d be able to answer.

Slowly I’d sit straight and tell myself, ‘I studied the subject, why does it appear I never saw these words. Then my inner self would wake me up and whisper, ‘Ranu you have three hours to answer six questions, start writing, do not hand over your empty booklet, because if you fail, your older brother will marry you off to a farmer, you’ll be stuck in a village and cry day and night.’

Was this a warning? I knew because Dad passed away, my brother would really do this awful thing to me, and Mom would say nothing. I managed to write my exams, I had no clue what the result would be and added to this was my lack of confidence.

Two days before the results came out, I’d start praying asking God to please help me pass, I don’t remember this but I must have promised I’ll study harder for my next exam. God probably thought, ‘this is what humans do, they pray to get out of trouble and when they are successful, they forget the promise and go back to their laziness.’

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Writing 101, Day, Five: Freedom

“Uncensored writing coming from the heart often produces the most amazing read.”__ Bebong

“Man was born free, and he is everywhere in chains.”__Jean Jacques Rousseau

“Free people remember this maxim: We may require liberty, but it is never recovered if it is once lost.”___ Jean Jacques Rousseau

” You forget that the fruits belong to all and the land belongs to none.” ___    Jean Jacques Rousseau

The above three quotes has a definite purpose in my mind.

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What Freedom Means To Me:

I’m assured, “uncensored writing,

Often produces amazing reading.”

Does it mean I have Freedom to speak my mind ?

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Do only the wealthy ,

Have freedom to look down upon,

The poor and unfortunate people?

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Is the color or gender of a human,

The decision making tool for success and,

Failure?

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Will a human be discriminated,

Because he speaks a different language,

And belongs to a developing country?

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Most humans believe in the

Creator of the Universe,

Whether he calls Him Allah or God or

Bhagwaan,will it matter?

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The French Philosopher said,

“Man is born free ,

and he is in chains everywhere.”

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These  words, does not mean freedom?

Jean- Jacques says, fruits belong to all,

But the land belongs to none,

Yet battles are fought to possess land.

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If we thought for a moment what

The above quotes  mean,

We will no longer feel we own anything.

Will we  still  fight wars and kill people?

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Education is not the privilege of a few,

All of humanity deserves to be educated.

To gain the most basic knowledge,

Why some of us are white and most are not.

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It gives  us the most essential wisdom,

Why are we different,

Who is the culprit?

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It’s the ‘Climate’,

Can we  wage a war against ‘Nature?’

No we cannot, because nature protects us.

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To be able to survive ,

Humans must believe in Liberty ,

Equality and Freedom.

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Liberty is, ‘Free will,’

Equality is,’Equal, rights and opportunities,’

Freedom means, ‘Personal or civic liberty.’

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The most important is my conclusion:

God announced to the Angels,

“I am going to have a ‘Vicegerent,’

On Earth , Adam is his name,’

The Angels protested,

God said, “You do not  know, what I know!”

God served His purpose by creating us.

He has faith in us, which is why He,

Paid no heed what the angels had to say.

Can we not join together,

And let the Angels Pray?

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Ghazal: Singer, Gayathri, lyrics: Bahadur Shah Zafar, posted and translated by Ranu

I never had trouble speaking as I do now.

Your meeting place was not like it is now.

Who has taken away my patience and calm?

I was never this impatient like now, O heart!

God knows the magic that was in her eyes,

My emotions never ran so deep as they do now,

I lacked the power of observation,

I never was overwhelmed as I am now.

I never had trouble speaking as I do now!

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Author’s view: On Prayer

Then a priestess said, “Speak to us of Prayer.”

And he answered,  saying :

You pray in your distress and your need; would that you might pray also in the fullness of your joy and in your days of abundance.

For what is prayer but the expansion of your self into the living ether?

And if it is for your comfort to pour your darkness into space, it is also for your delight to pour forth the dawning of your heart.

And if you cannot but weep when your soul summons you to prayer , she should spur you again and yet again, through weeping until you should come out laughing.

When you pray you rise to meet those who you can only meet by prayer.

Let your visit to that temple invisible be for naught but ecstasy and sweet communion.

If you enter the temple for no other purpose than asking you shall not receive,

you enter into it to humble yourself,

even if you enter it to beg for the good of others you shall not be heard,

It is enough you enter the temple invisible.

God listens not to your words save when He Himself utters them through your lips.

I cannot teach you the the prayer of the seas, the forests or the mountains,

You who are born of the mountains, the forests and the seas can find their prayer in your heart.

And if you listen in the stillness of the night, you shall hear them in silence:

“Our God , who art our winged self, it is thy will in us that willeth.

It is the desire in us that desireth.

“We cannot ask thee for aught for thou knowest our needs before they are born into us .

” Thou art our need ; and in giving us more of thyself thou givest us all.”

To be continued once more along with the author’s name!

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Continuation of the story: On Giving

Then a rich man said:

Speak to us about giving:

And he answered : You give but little when you give of your possessions. It is when you give of yourself you truly give.

For what are your possessions but things you keep and guard for fear you may need them tomorrow?

And tomorrow what shall tomorrow bring to the over- prudent dog burying bones in the trackless sand as he follows pilgrims to the holy city?

And what is fear of need but need itself?

There are those who give little of the much which they have–and they give it for recognition and their hidden desires makes their gifts unwholesome.

And there are those who have little but give it all. These are the believers in life and the bounty of life, and their coffer is never empty.

You often say, “I will give but only to the deserving,”

The trees in your orchard say not so, for to withhold is to perish.

Surely he who is worthy to receive his days and his nights is worthy of all else from you.

And you receivers-and you are all receivers -assume no weight of gratitude lest you lay a yoke upon yourself and upon him who gives.

For to be overmindful of your debt is to doubt his generosity who has the free-hearted earth for mother, and God for father.

To be continued 🙂

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Daily Prompt: Honorific

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If you pick one person to commemorated on a day dedicated to him/her alone, who would you choose?

I would choose my Mom. When  my Dad passed away, we the siblings were very young. My Mom took care of us and reminded us we can achieve anything we want, we only have to concentrate on our studies.

We all studied hard except, one of my older brothers refused to study. Even if my Dad was alive he wouldn’t be able to make him go to school.

My mom was an inspiration to us. She was a very pious lady and taught us never to spend time back biting, this is one of the things God dislikes.No matter how many good deeds we do, it will all be useless if we continue to speak ill of others.

She was very kind to her own siblings and her parents. Before she got married she helped my grandparents with the cooking . My mom had a sister eight years older than her, my mom was the one my grandparents thought would be able to do the work around the house.

365 Writing Prompts: Morality play

Where do your morals come from — Your family? Your faith ? Your Philosophical worldview? How do you deal with those who don’t share them,or derive from a different source?

Beliefs about what is right behavior and what is wrong behavior, in my case came from my parents, especially from my Mom. She spent a lot of time telling us how to behave with our elders, guests, teachers. We were always discouraged to say anything negative about these people.

My Mom always believed that teachers have a special place in our lives. They are the ones who give us knowledge, take time to explain things we do not understand, after our parents they look after our well-being for we spend most of the time during the day with them. Someone rightly said,”they are your second Mom.”

They (the teachers) deserve our respect, to not show respect to them is morally wrong.

I think we learn morality from our family and also our faith and educational institutions, to me it is a combination of all these that builds our character.

Our faith tells us to treat everyone equally regardless of their social status, we are created by God , who expects us to be kind to all His creation. While we all try most of the time sometimes we fall off the wagon because of outside influence which can make us ignore certain things which is inappropriate. Some of us do realize that inappropriate behavior towards anyone is wrong, we try to correct it because our conscience reminds us bad behavior makes us inhuman.

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365 Writing Prompts: Success

Tell us about a time where everything you’d hoped would happen actually did.

I cannot recall a time when I had hoped for anything. Every now and then, I’d tell my little brother , how I wished I could go to London to study. He and I knew it was something people like me, can dream of, but it would never become a reality.

I was once told by one of my profs. I should dream big only then I’ll be able to do well in life. Early in life the tragedy my family and I had to face was enough to make us feel, if we can be blessed with food each day and a decent shelter is all we could ask for. At that time I did not have any kind of ambition.

However my mom was a very pious woman, she must have prayed for us, day and night to be successful in life. I think it’s the only reason we were able to get a  good education.

When I was attending college in Dhaka city I was always concerned if my brothers were late in sending my fees. I went through this ordeal the whole time I was studying. I didn’t have the time to think of anything else. My mind was preoccupied with how many more years I’ll have to depend on my brothers.

The only time I was able to relax is when I received a scholarship to pursue my B.Ed. degree. I had the freedom to think of other things.

I still did not aim for anything out of the extraordinary,I just quietly hoped God would fulfill my wishes.

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Writing 101: random writing for fifteen minutes

I was looking forward to the prompt today, I think we’ll only get them on week days. This gives me a chance to write something, which might not be that interesting .but I’m writing which makes me happy.

I appreciated getting a comment from one blogger, who has a real sense of humor, I was delighted, I wrote about the shell that disappeared from my desk at school. she said maybe the ocean came and took it back. This reminded me of my childhood when we the siblings spent hours teasing each other, we did not need toys.

I thought I had gone back to my good old days when all we  were interested to do was tease each other. my younger brother would not leave me alone if I tried to speak  my mother tongue the way it should be spoken, not like a dialect, He’d have that silly grin when he would keep imitating the way I spoke until I’d be fed up and told him to leave me alone.

This reminds me of the song those days we thought will never end. They did end we are left to talk about it, sometimes we’d be sad other times we’d laugh and say to ourselves we are lucky we were a large family, we did not need friends, we had each other that was perfect for us.

As a family we  were very close, except we had the odd one who was too conceited to even talk to us. Yes she came from the same parents, she was a spoilt child who always wished she was the only child.

We the rest of us had a whale of a time we walked everywhere when we were not in school.I think of those days and tell myself thank God we loved each other, except the one black sheep we had, she was no fun and we did not want her company.

Now we barely see each other, we all have families of our own, we live in different countries, it’s not easy to visit each other. 🙂

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Fiction: Engulf

Lillie McFerrin Writes

It was an eerie morning, clouds looked heavy, dark, nature was ready to lighten its load.

The town already had heavy snowfall for weeks, the weatherman feared if it starts to rain, there will be disaster, the roofs of the houses would cave in because of all the snow piled up on top, the  owners were warned they must clear the snow from the roofs before the rainfall.

Almost everyone knew what it means to have rain on top of snow, Marcus was aware of it too, he was old and weak, he could not go up to clear the snow, he waited patiently to have some kind of miracle to save him from getting swallowed up by the snow, the roof, the deluge.

He sat in one corner of his house and prayed to God to save him, he did not have the strength to do anything, he dozed off while praying, he dreamed an angel was talking to him, “do not be scared the voice said, I am here to save you.”

He opened his eyes, found himself in a cozy bed,someone was talking to him, it was the voice of a little girl, “Dear Marcus my Dad saved you and brought you to our house, you should not be afraid any more, from now on we all will take care of you!”

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