I had a heated argument with one of my friends a short time ago. She thought I was too emotional, I must think about my decision before I take any action.
This reminds me of a few lines of poetry written in my language i.e., Bengali by a poet : this is what he wrote,” A happy and contented mind,cannot ever understand a person whose circumstances are different. Until you face the same predicament,you will never understand the pain I am going through.(translation by me).
I am not sure she understood, she stayed away from discussing it.
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English: Wordmark of Northwestern University. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)
I always wanted to do a masters degree in education. I thought the prerequisite must be to finish B.Ed.,I took admission and saw myself in the right path to get into the MEd. program. I applied for admission,but found out from Professor Elliott,I was too young and also did not qualify,because I had no teaching experience.
At that age,I had no fear,I said whatever came to my mind. The Prof. looked at me and smiled ,he said I’ll be given a battery of tests,which will determine my eligibility. I was ready to face anything, I did the tests.I started to feel scared,I had no idea what the outcome will be. A week later I received a letter of acceptance. I informed the school,where I taught,I wanted to resign. The authorities rejected, their explanation was,I cannot resign a government job. Disappointed I wrote to the Research centre about my predicament. They agreed to take me the following year. I was unable again,I got married,my husband worked outside Bangladesh.
They say,third time is the charm,but is it,I questioned? I applied for admission in North Western University in the suburb of Chicago. I received application forms for a Phd. I thought I’ll take a chance, I failed again, my husband pointed out I will lose money because I’ll have to take leave of absence without pay and also pay tuition etc., and my children were too young,my husband could not look after them all by himself. So I lost another chance. I gave up thinking maybe it’s not for me. Thinking it to be my “Destiny”,I consoled myself.
I took an online course where I learned not to blame
“Destiny”,that I can change it if I have the will to do so!