Daily Prompt: Helpless

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Helplessness: that dull sick feeling of not being on the reins. When did you last feel like that– and what did you do about it?

I had several days like that. One of them was when my Mom told me I could only stay at my friend’s house for an hour. She was firm and I was scared.

One might think perhaps I was a teenager and a naughty one so mom had to rein me in. It was nothing like that. I had completed all my education, a master’s degree in History and an education degree as well. I was teaching in a local school.

My friend also finished her degrees like me, she came from a respectable family, her mom let her come to my house whenever she wished, but my mom was not in favor of letting me go to her house. She did not have a brother, she only had one little sister.

I felt strange that at age twenty two my mom would be so strict with me. Anyway, I did nothing I went to my friend’s house, first thing I told her was I’m only allowed to spend one hour with her. When the clock told me my time was up, I quickly hired a rickshaw and came home.

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DP Daily Prompts: Adult Visions

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As a kid, you must have imagined what it was like to be an adult. Now that you’re a grownup( or becoming one) , how far off  was your idea of adult life.

When I was a kid I only saw my parents as adults, in my opinion then it meant they have a lot of power, they can tell us what we can and cannot do, in my case the little bit of money I had I wasn’t allowed to buy any kind of junk food, because according to my dad I’d be sick. I wasn’t sure what I am to do with the money if buying junk food is not allowed.

Then mom would force me to eat food I disliked such as egg, eggs always made me sick, my mom only believed me when I threw up, after this incidence mom stopped forcing me to eat eggs.

Oh I forgot to mention my big sister she was really a pain, whenever I wasn’t able to complete my homework I’d stay home, I was afraid of the punishment by the nuns, they were strict. On the day when I stayed home the school bus driver would keep honking for more than five minutes, I knew I was in trouble then. My Dad was very sweet he’d call me from his room and say ‘Ranu , you didn’t go to school?’

I’d say, ‘Dad I have a tummy ache .’

Dad wouldn’t ask another question, my sister was a whole different personality, she’d scream from her room and yell,”Rani you didn’t go to school?”

Notice how Ranu became Rani, to her it meant she was the boss and to show it the spelling of my name changed.

In my mind I thought when will I be able to boss around younger kids like my sister.

I didn’t like being nasty to younger kids, also if I wanted their attention I’d have to be nice or no one would care to listen to me.

When I’m upset the only thing that works for me is,”Silence”, if I stop talking my kids are afraid.

I was far off I thought when I grow up I’ll also be bossy like my sister, but I soon realized that kind of thing turns off young and old alike.

: https://sabethville.wordpress.com/2014/07/23/dp-daily-prompts/